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Jump Start Yourself

Do you ever get to the point where you are so tired that nothing seems to penetrate? I have the last holiday cards to decorate. I have a Yule Fic to review because I'm not happy with where my muse took me at the end of it, and I have another story to complete and submit by the end of the month. I have another Santa fic or graphic to make. I have stories to beta, drabbles to write, packages to wrap, and I was even thinking about putting up our tree. But I'm so tired and worn out from holiday ick that I have no energy left.

This is an easy season to let depression take over. Those of us who fight with that demon are familiar with the holiday season and approach it with a bit of trepidation. We know that the sugarplums, carols, tinsel and bows only hide and decorate an emptiness that exists in us and hides well. It's not that I'm a grinch or that other people who are depressed at this season are, it's that we are fighting the sugar plums of artificial happiness wrapped in a big bow. It's a balancing act and right now, because I am tired and a little bit spread thin, I'm feeling gritty and a bit rocky. I know I'll get my balance back, but there is a reason why the holiday season is the season of the highest number of suicides. This "season of love" can also be a "season of emptiness".

So, I want each of you reading this today to reach out to someone and tell them that they make a difference in your life. Don't just give them a physical gift, those are too easy to lose, break, or regift. Tell them, to their face if possible, that you are the person that you are today because of something that they did. Let them know that their footprint on this earth matters. Hopefully they will pay it forward and some of the pain of the Holiday Season will be minimized by just one small action on your part. Have a good weekend!
It is an incredibly difficult time of the year for me also. I lost my uncle and my father at this time of the year, and since Pagan beliefs are so subsumed in our society at this time, even though Solstice is a major holiday, it is one that is barely acknowledged.

But, in reaching out, I do have to tell you that you have made an incredible difference in my life, and that my life would be much poorer without having run across you. Every day I look at my poster of Van and feel grateful for our friendship.

- Erulisse (one L)
Oh, I am sorry, Erulisse, {{{Hugs}}}

And thank-you.

I actually feel embarrassed at having sent pictures to people; after all we're not kids, but it felt more personal to me than generic gifts, so I am glad some-one likes it.
Embarassed? Really? I love my poster, I have it up in my small cubicle at work and see it every day. There's just something about Van that always makes my day.

- Erulisse (one L)
I love this part of the year, actually. But I understand that not all people feel that way.

And I send you a hug and a little bit of energy; you have a lot to do, but I know you love writing and art and I'm sure working with stories and decorations will give you satisfaction, too. :) *hugs*
I had an hour to work on my Yule Fic this morning, and the changes that I have made up to this point are making the story work much, much better. Everything will come together, except for my MEFA reviews, and I just have to put those on the back burner because RL is too strident. It's my own fault, and I'll learn from this and be better at reviewing next year. Still, I feel as if I've let a lot of people down and that disappoints me.

Thanks for the hugs, I send some to you as well.

- Erulisse (one L)
I am not surprised that it is the highest time of year for suicides. For many it is an exclusive, rather than an inclusive, holiday.

When the kids were younger, we used to invite anyone we knew, who would be spending Christmas alone, to spend the day with us. My kids have carried on this tradition - in particular, a couple of years ago my son found that a new starter at work would be spending the holiday alone, because he had no family. My son invited him to stay, which he did. I was so proud of my son for doing that, especially when the young man said afterwards that he had been dreading spending Christmas day alone.

Hugs Binky x

I did that for Thanksgiving while I was in college, gathering up those who weren't able to go home to gather at our house for a great big pot-luck party. It is still something that I remember fondly. I was also invited to Passover celebrations and Christmas Eve celebrations at various homes while I was an undergrad and those times meant a lot to me. Good for your son for reaching out. It is such a human thing to do, yet it is done so very rarely.

- Erulisse (one L)
I suspect this time of year is only unrelievedly exciting and fun for people with small children whose eyes they can experience it through, lol.

My husband doesn't like December either. He\s taken the choice to work through the holidays even though his leave is due because the routine keeps things ticking over normally for him.

I find it wears me down when I have a lot of projects to juggle while there's all that frenetic energy swirling around.
When my nieces and nephews were younger, we used to have the entire family over for Christmas Eve. At that time we had money, so we would make a stocking for each of the eight kids and give gifts to the adults as well. It was wonderfully fun, if hectic, and I remember it with fondness. Now, though, with just the two of us and our work schedules, the holidays are just something we need to get through, not something to be enjoyed or celebrated. And in my own way, I feel a bit cheated by that.

- Erulisse (one L)
That sounds so lovely. It's much harder to adapt when there are good memories of a full, exciting time, isn't it?

It is difficult when we work retail and so much depends on sales of the season. We work six or seven days a week for several weeks in a row, it's just exhausting.

- Erulisse (one L)
{{{{hugs back at you}}}}

I must say that I love your pics and Lolcats that you share with us. I don't comment that often, but they always bring a smile to my face.

- Erulisse (one L)
Excellent, I'm pleased to hear that you have done and done. It was my pleasure to go introspective for my post today :-)

- Erulisse (one L)
I still find some joy in the holidays, but it is mingled with emptiness, so I can understand how people dread this time of year. Thanks for a thoughtful post. And try to take care of yourself. :)
You are so right that many find this time of year hard, hugs.

By the way, Teitho will grant a 5 day extension on request.
Teitho wasn't the problem, although I do appreciate knowing this. I turned Teitho in a week or more ago. And I think I finished my Yule Fic last night, although it's not very upbeat. Where I had envisioned snowball fights, my muse gave me something very, very different. But, the muse rules. One more read-through this morning and then I can turn that one in tonight. That will leave me with ALEC which is due at the end of the month. I know where that one is going, just am uncertain about how exactly the characters will get there. *sigh* Familiar story? I can hear the mini-violin being played in the corner - LOL.

- Erulisse (one L)